These past few weeks have not been the best for my depression. The episodes I'll have are so severe that I sometimes can't control my own actions or even what I say. Much of this has to do with vaginismus. The feelings of sadness, worthlessness, guilt, anger, frustration and disappointment come to my mind straight … Continue reading Vaginismus and Depression
My husband has recently gotten me to watch some great anime TV shows. I never thought I would enjoy them but, after they finished, I found myself sad and wanting more. Plus, I miss Kakashi and Spike! Luckily, he says there are a few more he plans to show me, like Attack on Titan. I … Continue reading Amazing Anime
During this weird time in our lives, we are experiencing something that we have never really experienced before…being stuck at home and unable to hangout with friends or family in person. Many of us are lucky to live with friends or family members, but others might be flying this quarantine period solo. This can be … Continue reading Fun Things to Do While Quarantined!
Have any of you ever tried to write a fictional novel based on events that have actually happened to you? Did you find it terribly difficult? If so, why was it difficult for you? I'm struggling for many reasons. It's sometimes difficult to remember everything and, when I do, the memories make me sad.Despite changing … Continue reading Writer’s Block: Advice?
With everything going on in the world right now, it feels weird to write a blog about myself. I truly hope all of you are healthy and not struggling financially, like so many are. It's a crazy time we are living in right now. On Tuesday, I had my surgery consultation with my new gynecologist/surgeon. … Continue reading Surgery Consultation
I hadn't planned on coming on here to provide an update on my lab results, but I decided that it might be an interesting part of my journey with vaginismus. The reason I say this is because there was one section of my lab results that didn't quite make sense. I wasn't sick when I … Continue reading My Lab Results
Drawing and writing has always been my outlet during the hard times. I drew this self portrait a VERY long time ago when I was 18 and first found out that I had vaginismus. I felt broken and vulnerable. I felt rejected by my relationship, friends and family. So, as my way of expression and … Continue reading Expressing Emotions about Vaginismus Through Art
To find out that you have vaginismus is already daunting, but shouldering the burden all on your own is arduous. When I first found out that I had vaginismus at 18, I kept the condition a secret from my family and friends. I knew my parents would be disappointed in me for having sex before … Continue reading Do You Have Vaginismus And Are Afraid To Tell Your Loved Ones?
In my book, Living with Vaginismus, I talk about the Botox Procedure and mention it briefly again in my blog post Best Tips/Advice Relating to Vaginismus. I then shared Botox Stories from Reddit to give you a better idea of other individual's perspective on the procedure. Today, I'm going to re-visit this topic because more … Continue reading Lets Talk About Botox…Again
Katrin With Love posted this video on my Living with Vaginismus Facebook Group. I was so happy she did she because this video leaves a very powerful message for the viewer. Be A Lady They Said When I watched this video, I instantly began to tear up without even realizing it. I got goosebumps and … Continue reading “Be a Lady They Said”