Fun Things to Do While Quarantined!

During this weird time in our lives, we are experiencing something that we have never really experienced before…being stuck at home and unable to hangout with friends or family in person. Many of us are lucky to live with friends or family members, but others might be flying this quarantine period solo. This can be …

Surgery Consultation

With everything going on in the world right now, it feels weird to write a blog about myself. I truly hope all of you are healthy and not struggling financially, like so many are. It's a crazy time we are living in right now. On Tuesday, I had my surgery consultation with my new gynecologist/surgeon. …

My Lab Results

I hadn't planned on coming on here to provide an update on my lab results, but I decided that it might be an interesting part of my journey with vaginismus. The reason I say this is because there was one section of my lab results that didn't quite make sense. I wasn't sick when I …

Expressing Emotions about Vaginismus Through Art

Drawing and writing has always been my outlet during the hard times. I drew this self portrait a VERY long time ago when I was 18 and first found out that I had vaginismus. I felt broken and vulnerable. I felt rejected by my relationship, friends and family. So, as my way of expression and …

Do You Have Vaginismus And Are Afraid To Tell Your Loved Ones?

To find out that you have vaginismus is already daunting, but shouldering the burden all on your own is arduous. When I first found out that I had vaginismus at 18, I kept the condition a secret from my family and friends. I knew my parents would be disappointed in me for having sex before …

Lets Talk About Botox…Again

In my book, Living with Vaginismus, I talk about the Botox Procedure and mention it briefly again in my blog post Best Tips/Advice Relating to Vaginismus. I then shared Botox Stories from Reddit to give you a better idea of other individual's perspective on the procedure. Today, I'm going to re-visit this topic because more …

“Be a Lady They Said”

Katrin With Love posted this video on my Living with Vaginismus Facebook Group. I was so happy she did she because this video leaves a very powerful message for the viewer. Be A Lady They Said When I watched this video, I instantly began to tear up without even realizing it. I got goosebumps and …

I’m pretty sure I’m cursed

It's been awhile since I've come on here to write a good post relating to vaginismus. I planned on doing this yesterday, as I had a very productive and educational therapy session, but the universe had other plans for me. My car decided to start making a horrible grinding and cranking noise. By this time, …

Life Update

So I really considered doing some research and writing a flavorful blog on something new, but I just couldn't do it. Yesterday I had a massive panic attack out of nowhere and I'm still feeling depressed from it. It's been such a long time that I didn't know what to do in that moment. I …

You Are Not Broken and You Never Were

Broken: Having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order.Webster's Dictionary I can't tell you the countless times I've told myself that I'm broken because of my vaginismus. However, what defines "broken?" I used to think that because I couldn't have sex something was wrong with me. Everyone else …