My Little Journal of Thoughts

So I feel like I've fallen down a hole and just decided to live there for the past 6 months. I haven't been on here since November 2021 and the hiatus has been...uh.. interesting. The problem with a hiatus is that you have had so many things happen during that time that you completely forget …

Autumn Rain

Today, I felt more inspired to write. Sitting by my porch with the door open, listening to the autumn rain, undoubtedly turns ones hectic mind into a relaxed state. My mind has not been relaxed in a very long time. Yesterday, was a very bad day for me in terms of my depression, and I …

A Ball of Yarn

WARNING: If thoughts of suicide cause you distress or trigger you in some way, please do not continue to read this post. Also, please reach out to someone if you do have thoughts of suicide. There are many grades of depression and everyone has a unique visual for how they would describe what their depression …

Do Affirmations Really Work?

So our air conditioner decided to die yesterday morning, after weeks of telling the apartment complex something seemed wrong with it. It's unfortunate that outside, in 90 degree weather with high humidity, is cooler than being in your own apartment. The apartment complex did give us a fan, which we put in the bedroom and …

Things “To Do” and “Not To Do” When You’re Spiraling

My phone has been giving me a hard time lately, so I haven't been able to get on here to write. It wasn't allowing me to access apps or even call and text people. I've gotten it fixed but I do need to get an upgrade. Aside from that, I've also just been playing Sims …

Some Art I’ve Created While I’ve Been Away

One of the things I've been trying to get back into is drawing. I've even been trying new mediums to keep myself interested and motivated. I used to spend HOURS in my room drawing. I remember laying on the floor, my pencils sprawled out on the floor around me, my black jukebox playing to my …

Music, Memory and Emotion

Music has always been that one thing that carries me through tough times. For as long as I can remember, music comforted me in ways that no person I knew could. I still remember each and every song I listened to during the times where I was really struggling. Even now, if I go back …

Deleting Facebook

When I say I "deleted Facebook," I really meant that I deleted the app from my phone and never go on it. It's been one of the best decisions I've made. Honestly, Facebook has always been the worst social media for my anxiety, depression and self-esteem. So, back in 2019, I turned off all notifications …

So How is Language Learning Really Going…

I started learning Korean almost 1 year ago. I've always had it on my bucket list to learn another language and have attempted Gaelic, Latin, Greek and Spanish. I put more effort into learning Gaelic than the others because I felt more of a connection with it being the language my ancestors spoke. However, one …

FemFusion Fitness

Over the weekend, my mom showed me this really interesting program that she bought and is currently using. She said she has had great results so far and showed me a few of the videos that you receive when you purchase the program. It looks very promising for many women...and men! This is not really …