Fear of Intimacy and Ways to Overcome it

One thing that many women who suffer from vaginismus fear, or end up being afraid of, is intimacy. I never used to be afraid of intimacy, but after knowingly having vaginismus and experiencing painful sex for almost 2 years, I began to shy away from it. Keep in mind intimacy doesn't mean just sex. Intimacy …

The Bike Accident

It hit me yesterday that I don't think I ever wrote a post on a bike accident I had when I was in 1st grade that probably contributed to my vaginismus on some level. There are a lot of contributing factors that caused my vaginismus, but I have already talked about those in posts (strict …

So good news!

Good news! I'm not cursed! Well, at least not at the moment 😉 I still tend to have horrible bad luck. Even my husband tells me the weirdest stuff happens to me. But this time things turned out pleasantly! My car happened to be a cheaper fix than we thought and the botox treatment is …

Life Update

So I really considered doing some research and writing a flavorful blog on something new, but I just couldn't do it. Yesterday I had a massive panic attack out of nowhere and I'm still feeling depressed from it. It's been such a long time that I didn't know what to do in that moment. I …

Update (the slightly inebriated version)

I was about to comment on how well my constitution is considering I had 6 viles of blood drawn today and I just drank a full bottle of wine (it's been awhile), but then I dropped my dinner and realized I'm not as epic as I thought I was... Just a brief update, because I …

New Gynecologist

Happy Saturday! Yesterday, I had my appointment with a new gynecologist, since I go through them like cheap clothes. I'm always hesitant with new doctors because 99.9% of the time they don't offer me any new solution for my condition. However, this appointment was different and left me hopeful. Naturally, gyno appointments have always been …

Tips to Help the Anxious Brain Sleep

Are you having trouble sleeping lately? I'm not sure what it is, but everyone in my office and personal life are having the worst time getting a good night's sleep. I don't think I've had a full nights sleep in 2 weeks. So, after talking with my therapist, because I had absolutely no idea why …

It’s Time for a Change!

It’s time for a change! I don’t view this as a negative. Everyone needs change in their life! Lately, I’ve been feeling really depressed and I don’t want to fall down that rabbit hole again. My depression could be heightened because of the whole Day Light Savings thing and lack of Vitamin D, but vaginismus …

Do Not Give Up

Becoming irrelevant is a hard pill to swallow. I’ve noticed this pattern within the last 6 - 8 months. Of course, I wish I could spend money on promoting things, like my book, my Facebook support group and my other social media accounts. Of course, I wish I lived in a larger town and reached …

Overcoming can be hard

Overcoming something is a challenge and can be scary. It's not a simple straightforward path that we walk down. Sometimes we are forced to jump hurdles, are stopped by road blocks, and might make a wrong turn here or there. However, none of this makes you weak. It's all part of the process proving that …