I’m pretty sure I’m cursed

It's been awhile since I've come on here to write a good post relating to vaginismus. I planned on doing this yesterday, as I had a very productive and educational therapy session, but the universe had other plans for me. My car decided to start making a horrible grinding and cranking noise. By this time, …

Life Update

So I really considered doing some research and writing a flavorful blog on something new, but I just couldn't do it. Yesterday I had a massive panic attack out of nowhere and I'm still feeling depressed from it. It's been such a long time that I didn't know what to do in that moment. I …

You Are Not Broken and You Never Were

Broken: Having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order.Webster's Dictionary I can't tell you the countless times I've told myself that I'm broken because of my vaginismus. However, what defines "broken?" I used to think that because I couldn't have sex something was wrong with me. Everyone else …

New Gynecologist

Happy Saturday! Yesterday, I had my appointment with a new gynecologist, since I go through them like cheap clothes. I'm always hesitant with new doctors because 99.9% of the time they don't offer me any new solution for my condition. However, this appointment was different and left me hopeful. Naturally, gyno appointments have always been …

It’s Time for a Change!

It’s time for a change! I don’t view this as a negative. Everyone needs change in their life! Lately, I’ve been feeling really depressed and I don’t want to fall down that rabbit hole again. My depression could be heightened because of the whole Day Light Savings thing and lack of Vitamin D, but vaginismus …

Do Not Give Up

Becoming irrelevant is a hard pill to swallow. I’ve noticed this pattern within the last 6 - 8 months. Of course, I wish I could spend money on promoting things, like my book, my Facebook support group and my other social media accounts. Of course, I wish I lived in a larger town and reached …

Overcoming can be hard

Overcoming something is a challenge and can be scary. It's not a simple straightforward path that we walk down. Sometimes we are forced to jump hurdles, are stopped by road blocks, and might make a wrong turn here or there. However, none of this makes you weak. It's all part of the process proving that …

*Another Lube Update*

About a month ago I had posted a *Lube Update*. Feel free to click the link to read about that before continuing with this new update! After that "lovely" experience with the previous lube, my husband and I went to CVS to try and find something else. Again, I don't have any PTO time left …

Sixteen and Terrified of Tampons

I'm going to preface this post by saying that I have the flu, and I'm doing my absolute best to have this whole blog post make sense. Let's continue... I thought I'd share a story that might be relatable to some of my fellow vaginismus friends. Is that even a thing: "vaginismus friends?" God, I'm …

HSP and its Connection to Vaginismus

"HSPs are that 15 to 20 percent of the human population born with a nervous system genetically designed to be more sensitive to subtleties, more prone to deep reflection on inner experience, and therefore inevitably more easily overwhelmed by outer events."The Highly Sensitive Person in Love by Elaine N. Aron I had made a post …