When you are living with depression and anxiety, then vaginismus on top of that, it can be hard to hold onto relationships. You are constantly struggling, but ultimately feel guilty that you are bringing another person into your mess. You feel like you are ruining another person's life and holding them back from having happiness. … Continue reading Feeling Worthless
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Vaginismus and Depression
These past few weeks have not been the best for my depression. The episodes I'll have are so severe that I sometimes can't control my own actions or even what I say. Much of this has to do with vaginismus. The feelings of sadness, worthlessness, guilt, anger, frustration and disappointment come to my mind straight … Continue reading Vaginismus and Depression
Surgery Consultation
With everything going on in the world right now, it feels weird to write a blog about myself. I truly hope all of you are healthy and not struggling financially, like so many are. It's a crazy time we are living in right now. On Tuesday, I had my surgery consultation with my new gynecologist/surgeon. … Continue reading Surgery Consultation
My Lab Results
I hadn't planned on coming on here to provide an update on my lab results, but I decided that it might be an interesting part of my journey with vaginismus. The reason I say this is because there was one section of my lab results that didn't quite make sense. I wasn't sick when I … Continue reading My Lab Results
Expressing Emotions about Vaginismus Through Art
Drawing and writing has always been my outlet during the hard times. I drew this self portrait a VERY long time ago when I was 18 and first found out that I had vaginismus. I felt broken and vulnerable. I felt rejected by my relationship, friends and family. So, as my way of expression and … Continue reading Expressing Emotions about Vaginismus Through Art
Do You Have Vaginismus And Are Afraid To Tell Your Loved Ones?
To find out that you have vaginismus is already daunting, but shouldering the burden all on your own is arduous. When I first found out that I had vaginismus at 18, I kept the condition a secret from my family and friends. I knew my parents would be disappointed in me for having sex before … Continue reading Do You Have Vaginismus And Are Afraid To Tell Your Loved Ones?
Lets Talk About Botox…Again
In my book, Living with Vaginismus, I talk about the Botox Procedure and mention it briefly again in my blog post Best Tips/Advice Relating to Vaginismus. I then shared Botox Stories from Reddit to give you a better idea of other individual's perspective on the procedure. Today, I'm going to re-visit this topic because more … Continue reading Lets Talk About Botox…Again
“Be a Lady They Said”
Katrin With Love posted this video on my Living with Vaginismus Facebook Group. I was so happy she did she because this video leaves a very powerful message for the viewer. Be A Lady They Said When I watched this video, I instantly began to tear up without even realizing it. I got goosebumps and … Continue reading “Be a Lady They Said”
Vulvar Desensitization
Thinking Beyond the Dilators I was given this link by Jackie Leduc, Owner of Cumberland Yoga & Mobility Studio in Ottawa Ontario. I'm attaching her website link HERE! Go visit because she's very knowledgeable on the subject of Pelvic Floor healing and an all around wonderful human being 🙂 When I sat down to read … Continue reading Vulvar Desensitization
Fear of Intimacy and Ways to Overcome it
One thing that many women who suffer from vaginismus fear, or end up being afraid of, is intimacy. I never used to be afraid of intimacy, but after knowingly having vaginismus and experiencing painful sex for almost 2 years, I began to shy away from it. Keep in mind intimacy doesn't mean just sex. Intimacy … Continue reading Fear of Intimacy and Ways to Overcome it
