Fun Things to Do While Quarantined!

During this weird time in our lives, we are experiencing something that we have never really experienced before…being stuck at home and unable to hangout with friends or family in person. Many of us are lucky to live with friends or family members, but others might be flying this quarantine period solo. This can be …

Expressing Emotions about Vaginismus Through Art

Drawing and writing has always been my outlet during the hard times. I drew this self portrait a VERY long time ago when I was 18 and first found out that I had vaginismus. I felt broken and vulnerable. I felt rejected by my relationship, friends and family. So, as my way of expression and …

I’m pretty sure I’m cursed

It's been awhile since I've come on here to write a good post relating to vaginismus. I planned on doing this yesterday, as I had a very productive and educational therapy session, but the universe had other plans for me. My car decided to start making a horrible grinding and cranking noise. By this time, …

Life Update

So I really considered doing some research and writing a flavorful blog on something new, but I just couldn't do it. Yesterday I had a massive panic attack out of nowhere and I'm still feeling depressed from it. It's been such a long time that I didn't know what to do in that moment. I …

New Gynecologist

Happy Saturday! Yesterday, I had my appointment with a new gynecologist, since I go through them like cheap clothes. I'm always hesitant with new doctors because 99.9% of the time they don't offer me any new solution for my condition. However, this appointment was different and left me hopeful. Naturally, gyno appointments have always been …

Do Not Give Up

Becoming irrelevant is a hard pill to swallow. I’ve noticed this pattern within the last 6 - 8 months. Of course, I wish I could spend money on promoting things, like my book, my Facebook support group and my other social media accounts. Of course, I wish I lived in a larger town and reached …

Overcoming can be hard

Overcoming something is a challenge and can be scary. It's not a simple straightforward path that we walk down. Sometimes we are forced to jump hurdles, are stopped by road blocks, and might make a wrong turn here or there. However, none of this makes you weak. It's all part of the process proving that …

HSP and its Connection to Vaginismus

"HSPs are that 15 to 20 percent of the human population born with a nervous system genetically designed to be more sensitive to subtleties, more prone to deep reflection on inner experience, and therefore inevitably more easily overwhelmed by outer events."The Highly Sensitive Person in Love by Elaine N. Aron I had made a post …

Our Wedding

All 700 pictures are here! Don't worry, I won't make you view all of them 😉 The wedding was perfect, or what I would describe as perfect. It's funny how after years of planning the moment is gone before you know it, but the pictures remain. This is one reason pictures have always been so …

How to Use Dilators Correctly

Dilators: Those annoying, yet helpful, phallic-looking plastic, silicone or glass instruments used to help stretch the PC muscles ❤️ Pediatric sizes Vaginal sizes Many women are given dilators without any instruction on how to use them. Of course, these cylindrical tools can be extremely helpful if used correctly. Physical Therapists will show you how to …