“Be a Lady They Said”

Katrin With Love posted this video on my Living with Vaginismus Facebook Group. I was so happy she did she because this video leaves a very powerful message for the viewer. Be A Lady They Said When I watched this video, I instantly began to tear up without even realizing it. I got goosebumps and …

Vulvar Desensitization

Thinking Beyond the Dilators I was given this link by Jackie Leduc, Owner of Cumberland Yoga & Mobility Studio in Ottawa Ontario. I'm attaching her website link HERE! Go visit because she's very knowledgeable on the subject of Pelvic Floor healing and an all around wonderful human being 🙂 When I sat down to read …

Fear of Intimacy and Ways to Overcome it

One thing that many women who suffer from vaginismus fear, or end up being afraid of, is intimacy. I never used to be afraid of intimacy, but after knowingly having vaginismus and experiencing painful sex for almost 2 years, I began to shy away from it. Keep in mind intimacy doesn't mean just sex. Intimacy …

The Bike Accident

It hit me yesterday that I don't think I ever wrote a post on a bike accident I had when I was in 1st grade that probably contributed to my vaginismus on some level. There are a lot of contributing factors that caused my vaginismus, but I have already talked about those in posts (strict …

So good news!

Good news! I'm not cursed! Well, at least not at the moment 😉 I still tend to have horrible bad luck. Even my husband tells me the weirdest stuff happens to me. But this time things turned out pleasantly! My car happened to be a cheaper fix than we thought and the botox treatment is …

I’m pretty sure I’m cursed

It's been awhile since I've come on here to write a good post relating to vaginismus. I planned on doing this yesterday, as I had a very productive and educational therapy session, but the universe had other plans for me. My car decided to start making a horrible grinding and cranking noise. By this time, …

Life Update

So I really considered doing some research and writing a flavorful blog on something new, but I just couldn't do it. Yesterday I had a massive panic attack out of nowhere and I'm still feeling depressed from it. It's been such a long time that I didn't know what to do in that moment. I …

You Are Not Broken and You Never Were

Broken: Having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order.Webster's Dictionary I can't tell you the countless times I've told myself that I'm broken because of my vaginismus. However, what defines "broken?" I used to think that because I couldn't have sex something was wrong with me. Everyone else …

Update (the slightly inebriated version)

I was about to comment on how well my constitution is considering I had 6 viles of blood drawn today and I just drank a full bottle of wine (it's been awhile), but then I dropped my dinner and realized I'm not as epic as I thought I was... Just a brief update, because I …

New Gynecologist

Happy Saturday! Yesterday, I had my appointment with a new gynecologist, since I go through them like cheap clothes. I'm always hesitant with new doctors because 99.9% of the time they don't offer me any new solution for my condition. However, this appointment was different and left me hopeful. Naturally, gyno appointments have always been …