I’m pretty sure I’m cursed

It's been awhile since I've come on here to write a good post relating to vaginismus. I planned on doing this yesterday, as I had a very productive and educational therapy session, but the universe had other plans for me. My car decided to start making a horrible grinding and cranking noise. By this time, …

Life Update

So I really considered doing some research and writing a flavorful blog on something new, but I just couldn't do it. Yesterday I had a massive panic attack out of nowhere and I'm still feeling depressed from it. It's been such a long time that I didn't know what to do in that moment. I …

Update (the slightly inebriated version)

I was about to comment on how well my constitution is considering I had 6 viles of blood drawn today and I just drank a full bottle of wine (it's been awhile), but then I dropped my dinner and realized I'm not as epic as I thought I was... Just a brief update, because I …

New Gynecologist

Happy Saturday! Yesterday, I had my appointment with a new gynecologist, since I go through them like cheap clothes. I'm always hesitant with new doctors because 99.9% of the time they don't offer me any new solution for my condition. However, this appointment was different and left me hopeful. Naturally, gyno appointments have always been …

Tips to Help the Anxious Brain Sleep

Are you having trouble sleeping lately? I'm not sure what it is, but everyone in my office and personal life are having the worst time getting a good night's sleep. I don't think I've had a full nights sleep in 2 weeks. So, after talking with my therapist, because I had absolutely no idea why …

It’s Time for a Change!

It’s time for a change! I don’t view this as a negative. Everyone needs change in their life! Lately, I’ve been feeling really depressed and I don’t want to fall down that rabbit hole again. My depression could be heightened because of the whole Day Light Savings thing and lack of Vitamin D, but vaginismus …

HSP and its Connection to Vaginismus

"HSPs are that 15 to 20 percent of the human population born with a nervous system genetically designed to be more sensitive to subtleties, more prone to deep reflection on inner experience, and therefore inevitably more easily overwhelmed by outer events."The Highly Sensitive Person in Love by Elaine N. Aron I had made a post …

*New Lube Update*

After the wedding, I decided to get back on track working with the dilators. I felt that: 1. I would have more time to devote to them and (hopefully) be less stressed out. 2. I also wanted to get back into the habit of using them if I planned to get the Botox procedure in …

How to Use Dilators Correctly

Dilators: Those annoying, yet helpful, phallic-looking plastic, silicone or glass instruments used to help stretch the PC muscles ❤️ Pediatric sizes Vaginal sizes Many women are given dilators without any instruction on how to use them. Of course, these cylindrical tools can be extremely helpful if used correctly. Physical Therapists will show you how to …

Best Tips/Advice Relating to Vaginismus

If you are looking for tips/advice regarding anything relating to vaginismus continue reading... I know exactly what it's like to initially find out that you have vaginismus and to become overwhelmed with what to do next. It's scary to open up your web browser, search "vaginismus," and see what pops up. It's even scarier to …