Sleep Paralysis

Have any of you experienced sleep paralysis? Honestly, I never had until recently. I had experienced vivid hallucinations and lucid dreaming, but never something like this. The vivid hallucinations happened a few years back when I was incredibly stressed out. You can read about that in a blog I wrote last year: How your body …

RE-BLOG: November 20, 2019 “Working on Us” Week #24 Mental Health Blogging Community-Mental Health Series, Topic: Managing Your Mental Health During The Holidays — Beckie’s Mental Mess

Hello, All! Welcome back to “Working on Us” – A series that represents people with mental health illnesses/disorders. ~💚~ Before I begin Week #24, I’d like to share with you all the participants that had responded to Week #23, Topic: Medication. Wow! This subject matter really gained a lot of attention with regard to types […]November …

Our Wedding

All 700 pictures are here! Don't worry, I won't make you view all of them 😉 The wedding was perfect, or what I would describe as perfect. It's funny how after years of planning the moment is gone before you know it, but the pictures remain. This is one reason pictures have always been so …

*New Lube Update*

After the wedding, I decided to get back on track working with the dilators. I felt that: 1. I would have more time to devote to them and (hopefully) be less stressed out. 2. I also wanted to get back into the habit of using them if I planned to get the Botox procedure in …

Sunday morning 🍁

This little guy was enjoying the crisp fall air 😊 Song of the morning: Honey Take My Hand by Cody Francis Drink of choice: Pumpkin spice from Harvey and Sons

What enriches your life?

A Youtuber I follow recently asked the question, "What enriches your life and why?" Her question really got me thinking. I sat down, and without much thought or planning, I just wrote. I was surprised by my answer, but was proud of myself for its honesty. This simple question turned out to mean so much …

Goodbye Baby Victoria!

I’m so excited to take a step forward into a new chapter in my life once the wedding is over. I’m taking this wedding as, not only an end of the old me, but also a brand-new beginning that is bigger and brighter than ever. People’s true colors have emerged as my fiancé and I …

Vaginismus, Weddings & Honeymoons…Oh my!

I have received a few emails asking if I have either overcome or progressed with my vaginismus. Unfortunately, I have not. In fact, one of the main reasons I have not been discussing my vaginismus on here lately has been because 1. I have been SUPER busy and 2. Talking about it only reminds me …

The Troubles I’ve Been Facing

It's difficult to put into words the horrific feelings and relentless emotions I feel daily. Right when you think things are going well, that feeling of hoplessness catches you off guard. You fall back into your own distant bubble, away from everyone else, because you perceive yourself as a burden to others. Who wants to …

Very Rough Start of My Book

Since I'm going to write this book as a memoir, I have to find a way begin again. Scrapping my previous pages wasn't as heartbreaking as I thought it would be, and I think that's because I knew the story wasn't as powerful as it could be. Here is a very rough draft of a …