Vaginismus and Depression

These past few weeks have not been the best for my depression. The episodes I'll have are so severe that I sometimes can't control my own actions or even what I say. Much of this has to do with vaginismus. The feelings of sadness, worthlessness, guilt, anger, frustration and disappointment come to my mind straight …

So good news!

Good news! I'm not cursed! Well, at least not at the moment 😉 I still tend to have horrible bad luck. Even my husband tells me the weirdest stuff happens to me. But this time things turned out pleasantly! My car happened to be a cheaper fix than we thought and the botox treatment is …

I’m pretty sure I’m cursed

It's been awhile since I've come on here to write a good post relating to vaginismus. I planned on doing this yesterday, as I had a very productive and educational therapy session, but the universe had other plans for me. My car decided to start making a horrible grinding and cranking noise. By this time, …

Life Update

So I really considered doing some research and writing a flavorful blog on something new, but I just couldn't do it. Yesterday I had a massive panic attack out of nowhere and I'm still feeling depressed from it. It's been such a long time that I didn't know what to do in that moment. I …

Update (the slightly inebriated version)

I was about to comment on how well my constitution is considering I had 6 viles of blood drawn today and I just drank a full bottle of wine (it's been awhile), but then I dropped my dinner and realized I'm not as epic as I thought I was... Just a brief update, because I …

It’s Time for a Change!

It’s time for a change! I don’t view this as a negative. Everyone needs change in their life! Lately, I’ve been feeling really depressed and I don’t want to fall down that rabbit hole again. My depression could be heightened because of the whole Day Light Savings thing and lack of Vitamin D, but vaginismus …

Do Not Give Up

Becoming irrelevant is a hard pill to swallow. I’ve noticed this pattern within the last 6 - 8 months. Of course, I wish I could spend money on promoting things, like my book, my Facebook support group and my other social media accounts. Of course, I wish I lived in a larger town and reached …

Sunday Funday and Artwork

Really guys?! LOL Unrelated, today has been super productive! I cleaned the whole apartment at 8:00am this morning, did the laundry, bedding, etc. Then I decided to pick up my pencil and drawing pad again. It's been YEARS! I'm excited because drawing was my main way of expressing myself, but it has fallen through the …

Sleep Paralysis

Have any of you experienced sleep paralysis? Honestly, I never had until recently. I had experienced vivid hallucinations and lucid dreaming, but never something like this. The vivid hallucinations happened a few years back when I was incredibly stressed out. You can read about that in a blog I wrote last year: How your body …

RE-BLOG: November 20, 2019 “Working on Us” Week #24 Mental Health Blogging Community-Mental Health Series, Topic: Managing Your Mental Health During The Holidays — Beckie’s Mental Mess

Hello, All! Welcome back to “Working on Us” – A series that represents people with mental health illnesses/disorders. ~💚~ Before I begin Week #24, I’d like to share with you all the participants that had responded to Week #23, Topic: Medication. Wow! This subject matter really gained a lot of attention with regard to types […]November …