Autumn Rain

Today, I felt more inspired to write. Sitting by my porch with the door open, listening to the autumn rain, undoubtedly turns ones hectic mind into a relaxed state. My mind has not been relaxed in a very long time. Yesterday, was a very bad day for me in terms of my depression, and I …

Things “To Do” and “Not To Do” When You’re Spiraling

My phone has been giving me a hard time lately, so I haven't been able to get on here to write. It wasn't allowing me to access apps or even call and text people. I've gotten it fixed but I do need to get an upgrade. Aside from that, I've also just been playing Sims …

FemFusion Fitness

Over the weekend, my mom showed me this really interesting program that she bought and is currently using. She said she has had great results so far and showed me a few of the videos that you receive when you purchase the program. It looks very promising for many women...and men! This is not really …

How Depression has effected Vaginismus for me

I’ve noticed that I’ve had to put working on vaginismus on hold for quite some time because I needed to manage my depression. My therapist and psychiatrist said that, “Since your depression is fatal, we need to focus all of our attention on that first.” So, that’s what I’ve been doing. Unfortunately, the outcome of …

Vaginismus and Depression

These past few weeks have not been the best for my depression. The episodes I'll have are so severe that I sometimes can't control my own actions or even what I say. Much of this has to do with vaginismus. The feelings of sadness, worthlessness, guilt, anger, frustration and disappointment come to my mind straight …

Surgery Consultation

With everything going on in the world right now, it feels weird to write a blog about myself. I truly hope all of you are healthy and not struggling financially, like so many are. It's a crazy time we are living in right now. On Tuesday, I had my surgery consultation with my new gynecologist/surgeon. …

Expressing Emotions about Vaginismus Through Art

Drawing and writing has always been my outlet during the hard times. I drew this self portrait a VERY long time ago when I was 18 and first found out that I had vaginismus. I felt broken and vulnerable. I felt rejected by my relationship, friends and family. So, as my way of expression and …

Do You Have Vaginismus And Are Afraid To Tell Your Loved Ones?

To find out that you have vaginismus is already daunting, but shouldering the burden all on your own is arduous. When I first found out that I had vaginismus at 18, I kept the condition a secret from my family and friends. I knew my parents would be disappointed in me for having sex before …

Lets Talk About Botox…Again

In my book, Living with Vaginismus, I talk about the Botox Procedure and mention it briefly again in my blog post Best Tips/Advice Relating to Vaginismus. I then shared Botox Stories from Reddit to give you a better idea of other individual's perspective on the procedure. Today, I'm going to re-visit this topic because more …

Vulvar Desensitization

Thinking Beyond the Dilators I was given this link by Jackie Leduc, Owner of Cumberland Yoga & Mobility Studio in Ottawa Ontario. I'm attaching her website link HERE! Go visit because she's very knowledgeable on the subject of Pelvic Floor healing and an all around wonderful human being 🙂 When I sat down to read …