Fear of Intimacy and Ways to Overcome it

One thing that many women who suffer from vaginismus fear, or end up being afraid of, is intimacy. I never used to be afraid of intimacy, but after knowingly having vaginismus and experiencing painful sex for almost 2 years, I began to shy away from it. Keep in mind intimacy doesn't mean just sex. Intimacy …

The Bike Accident

It hit me yesterday that I don't think I ever wrote a post on a bike accident I had when I was in 1st grade that probably contributed to my vaginismus on some level. There are a lot of contributing factors that caused my vaginismus, but I have already talked about those in posts (strict …

So good news!

Good news! I'm not cursed! Well, at least not at the moment 😉 I still tend to have horrible bad luck. Even my husband tells me the weirdest stuff happens to me. But this time things turned out pleasantly! My car happened to be a cheaper fix than we thought and the botox treatment is …

I’m pretty sure I’m cursed

It's been awhile since I've come on here to write a good post relating to vaginismus. I planned on doing this yesterday, as I had a very productive and educational therapy session, but the universe had other plans for me. My car decided to start making a horrible grinding and cranking noise. By this time, …

Life Update

So I really considered doing some research and writing a flavorful blog on something new, but I just couldn't do it. Yesterday I had a massive panic attack out of nowhere and I'm still feeling depressed from it. It's been such a long time that I didn't know what to do in that moment. I …

Update (the slightly inebriated version)

I was about to comment on how well my constitution is considering I had 6 viles of blood drawn today and I just drank a full bottle of wine (it's been awhile), but then I dropped my dinner and realized I'm not as epic as I thought I was... Just a brief update, because I …

New Gynecologist

Happy Saturday! Yesterday, I had my appointment with a new gynecologist, since I go through them like cheap clothes. I'm always hesitant with new doctors because 99.9% of the time they don't offer me any new solution for my condition. However, this appointment was different and left me hopeful. Naturally, gyno appointments have always been …

Our Wedding

All 700 pictures are here! Don't worry, I won't make you view all of them 😉 The wedding was perfect, or what I would describe as perfect. It's funny how after years of planning the moment is gone before you know it, but the pictures remain. This is one reason pictures have always been so …

Bloggers helping bloggers

It's always nice to see women helping other women uplift each other, so that they too can succeed. For me, I always enjoy meeting fellow colleagues, who share an interest in spreading the word about vaginismus and try to help other women overcome this condition. These women spend their days creating a healing environment where …

Update on the Maca Root Powder…

It tastes like shit... No, seriously. I'm not even trying to be dramatic here. I tried using a chocolate banana smoothie recipe that was specifically made to incorporate the Maca Root Powder and I still couldn't even drink half the glass. Ingredients 2/3 cup almond milk 1 banana 1 scoop vanilla protein powder (which I …