My Husband Won’t Fit

My fiance told me about a Netflix TV series called, My Husband Won't Fit. If you can't tell from the title, it's about a woman struggling with vaginismus in her marriage. The sweet thing about my fiance is that, when he noticed I was watching it alone, he said, "Oh, I was hoping we could …

The Archer

When a song is super relatable to you... We've all been there, more than once. You know what I mean? There's a song you hear on the radio and you stop what you are doing and go, "Holy hell! That song is about me!" We all know it's not, but sometimes songs are scarily accurate …

Anxiety

Strains of built up tension run through my veins How the guilt of disturbance still steadfastly remains You hold onto hope that tomorrow will be better And have a sinking heart when tomorrow comes with a ruthless vendetta The all-consuming irrational fears are unkindly timed Excessive worry and shortness of breath steadily make the long …

Note:

Never personally tell a person with vaginismus that you think sex before marriage is a sin, unless you wish to make them even more depressed than they already are. Just a word of advice from the person, who was finally having a decent day and then got sideswiped by that random message. Just try to …

Dream Board

Have any of you made a “Dream Board” before? I’ve been toying with the idea recently for two reasons: I can stimulate my mind with some creativity in crafting I can plant my dreams on this board, hopefully manifesting some positivity into my life I’m slowly being weaned off Zoloft and have been placed on …

Very Rough Start of My Book

Since I'm going to write this book as a memoir, I have to find a way begin again. Scrapping my previous pages wasn't as heartbreaking as I thought it would be, and I think that's because I knew the story wasn't as powerful as it could be. Here is a very rough draft of a …

Eeyore

Awe, I absolutely love this ❤

RTL Television video segment

I totally underestimated the time frame of how long it takes a segment to appear on TV. So, since it was so long ago, let me take you back to October when RTL Television flew to my place from New York to shoot a segment for a German news channel on vaginismus. The whole shoot …

Book number 2?

To begin a new book or not...that is the question I am constantly asking myself. Instead of giving myself a time frame on when I need to have it done, I'm just going to work on it when I feel inspiration flowing. It's going to be my story. My own personal story of living with …

Pap Smears & Vaginismus

So, if you have vaginismus, you know how difficult or impossible it is to get a pap smear. In fact, up until the other day, I had never been able to successfully have a pap smear done on me and I'm 27 years old. I was so fortunate to find this amazing gynecologist in my …