These past few weeks have not been the best for my depression. The episodes I'll have are so severe that I sometimes can't control my own actions or even what I say. Much of this has to do with vaginismus. The feelings of sadness, worthlessness, guilt, anger, frustration and disappointment come to my mind straight … Continue reading Vaginismus and Depression
During this weird time in our lives, we are experiencing something that we have never really experienced before…being stuck at home and unable to hangout with friends or family in person. Many of us are lucky to live with friends or family members, but others might be flying this quarantine period solo. This can be … Continue reading Fun Things to Do While Quarantined!
Katrin With Love posted this video on my Living with Vaginismus Facebook Group. I was so happy she did she because this video leaves a very powerful message for the viewer. Be A Lady They Said When I watched this video, I instantly began to tear up without even realizing it. I got goosebumps and … Continue reading “Be a Lady They Said”
Broken: Having been fractured or damaged and no longer in one piece or in working order.Webster's Dictionary I can't tell you the countless times I've told myself that I'm broken because of my vaginismus. However, what defines "broken?" I used to think that because I couldn't have sex something was wrong with me. Everyone else … Continue reading You Are Not Broken and You Never Were
Medicate to numb the pain. It'll change the chemicals inside your brain. Their empty promises are loud and clear. Everything they said became my own worst fear. **** I was high on life and then I was low, Choking down the pills for their little sideshow. Weight crept on me like a silent killer, Making … Continue reading Medicate Poem
I go unnoticed on a silent street. Sometimes forgotten in an empty backseat. They laugh when they realize their accidental mistake. I sit in silence watching my heart break. **** Easily forgotten, easily ignored. I lay my head down on a cold dashboard. When will the colors finally come out to play? Do I even … Continue reading Easily Forgotten, Easily Ignored Poem
Phantom voices fill my head, Whispering chilling tales as I lay in bed. Part of me begs for those voices to go. The rest of me pleads for them to flow. **** I move from my bed to lay on the floor, Hoping to catch a glimpse of reality once more. The numbing tides sweep … Continue reading Phantom Voices Poem