Have any of you experienced sleep paralysis?
Honestly, I never had until recently. I had experienced vivid hallucinations and lucid dreaming, but never something like this.
The vivid hallucinations happened a few years back when I was incredibly stressed out. You can read about that in a blog I wrote last year: How your body reacts to stress.
I don’t believe I ever talked about the other hallucinations I saw when taking St. John’s Wort my senior year of college. I took it because my doctor knew that I didn’t want to be prescribed medication, so he suggested something over the counter. At first, nothing seemed to be happening with the St. John’s Wort, but after taking it a few weeks I began to notice that I was seeing things out of the corner of my eye that didn’t make sense. One morning, I even woke up to a little girl standing by the curtains calling out my name.
After that horrifying incident, I just stopped taking it and will never take it again. Seeing dead little girls is definitely not how I want to spend my mornings. I mean I hadn’t even had my coffee yet! Jeez, these ghosts can be so inconsiderate…
For the past month now, I have had three different incidents with sleep paralysis that were pretty traumatizing. One of these incidents occurred just last night – hence this post.
I will be laying in bed asleep and then wake up unable to move or speak. I’ll see shadow figures either enter the room or appear in the corner of my room and slowly start walking over to me. I want to get up and react because panic sets in and my heart feels like it’s going to beat out of my chest, but my body physically won’t let me, so these shadows just keep moving closer and closer. The only thing that has pulled me out of these moments is my dog.
Honestly, he is so protective and aware that if he isn’t reacting to what I’m seeing, then I know for a fact it’s all in my head. Now, if he starts growling or staring in the direction of a shadow figure I’m seeing, then we have a serious problem. That’s a WHOLE different kind of post!
Last nights episode was extra weird though. I woke up and was unable to move, speak or even breathe and noticed my husband moving around and talking in his sleep next to me. Normally, he doesn’t do this, so I kept trying to look over and see what was going on but could only see glimpses out of the corner of my eye.
I kept seeing shadow figures beside him and my dog, leaning over and doing something to them. I was panicking that they were being attacked, especially because my husband was reacting. I tried extra hard to get up to protect them, but literally couldn’t. It felt like something was sitting on my chest and, any time I would fight back, it became harder to breathe.
I noticed I had tears in my eyes as I tried to open my mouth and yell. Finally, I was able to release myself from this paralysis and got up to make sure they were both okay. Both were sound asleep and nothing was in the room.
I get that this probably has to do with stress as well, but Lord have mercy!