Book number 2?

To begin a new book or not…that is the question I am constantly asking myself. Instead of giving myself a time frame on when I need to have it done, I’m just going to work on it when I feel inspiration flowing. It’s going to be my story. My own personal story of living with vaginismus in college. I’m changing the names of everyone, but the important aspects of the story will be there. In fact, I’m going to introduce the prologue for all of you here. Feel free to let me know what you think, and if it makes you feel like continuing to read more.

Things don’t always turn out like they are supposed to. Sometimes the things that are supposed to make the most sense simply don’t. I couldn’t comprehend how or why my life was suddenly spiraling out of my control. Nothing seemed fair. It was like a sick joke that the universe was playing on me right in front of my face. All I was certain of was that I couldn’t stop the inevitable train from running off the rails.

My future was meant to be one where I shared romance with my significant other, who I would grow old with. Our little family were all supposed to sit around campfires telling stories, opening presents on Christmas and enjoying a succulent turkey for Thanksgiving. Laughter would ring throughout the home, and my husband and I would smile lovingly into each other’s eyes, proud of the future we built and shared.

However, that future is not turning out the way I planned. My life is not turning out how I wanted it to. I highly doubt any man will ever want to spend his life with me, let alone gaze into my eyes with admiration. We live in a world where sex dominates, but what if you were one of the few who couldn’t have it?

I was 18 about to turn 19 and going into college. I was naive, I was innocent, and I didn’t know any better. It’s hard to imagine that something so simple can redefine your entire life; that something so simple can change people’s opinion of you and show their true colors.  My story isn’t pretty. It’s not some exciting adventure detailing my wonderful experiences of college. Instead, my story has a lot of heartbreak. It has a lot of pain, sadness, grief and, worst of all, abuse. My story isn’t for the faint-hearted. It’s not for those who get squeamish or feel uncomfortable talking about important issues in our society. Do you want to hear a real story about a young girl going through college with vaginismus? Well then, continue reading. However, if you want to remain in a bubble and pretend things like this never happen to people, then I suggest closing the book because my story is only going to get worse.

18 thoughts on “Book number 2?

  1. This sounds great so far and I can’t wait to be able to read more. I think writing your own story is brilliant. I have been wanting to write my own book loosely based on my journey with MS for SO long. I have an outline, but that’s about it. I am so excited to read more of your posts as well. I hope if you have the time you will check out my site. I do my best to spread as much positivity as I can!! Take care and I hope you had a nice weekend!

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      • I believe it will! Putting your voice out there for those who don’t want to or are afraid of a condition is something that not everyone has an opportunity to do. I think you’ll get the courage to write that book and that it will make a difference in people’s lives ❤

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      • Thank you so much!!! Everything you wrote is incredibly true!! People often seem to fear random conditions and that is just sad for them. I do hope I will gain the courage to write my book someday. I honestly do not know where to even start! I do have the determination though!

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      • I hate to hear you received horrible comments after you first book. I do believe all the haters just envy what you have done. You are right, the haters would never hate the courage to write a book and they just wish they had that quality! If you don’t mind me asking, how did you manage to start your first book?

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      • Well I basically began blogging and the feedback I received here gave me the courage to write the first book. I wanted to bring awareness of this condition to other women, who didn’t have the voice to speak up about it. I self-published it on Amazon since that was the easiest and cheapest option 🙂

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      • That is absolutely amazing and very encouraging! I honestly never thought about self-publishing on Amazon, but thank you so much for the tip! I haven’t really received much negative feedback with my blog, so maybe it’s time to take the leap and write the book I have been dreaming of. Thank you SO much, I really do appreciate you!!!

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      • I will definitely let you know when it is finished and even give you a free copy to thank you for your amazing support! I had forgot, I already had started some of the book, but I am changing how it begins. It is funny, I said it would be loosely based on a true story, but so far the beginning is all true! It is definitely a scary step, but it is one that should have already happened. How long did it take you to self-publish through Amazon? Did you have a editor or anything like that?

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      • Awe you’re so sweet! Thank you 🙂 Honestly, the Amazon self-publishing process was so easy! I used Word and just uploaded that onto their page. I also had a friend of mine proofread the book before I sent it off. It’s always nice to have a 2nd pair of eyes 🙂

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      • You are more than welcome! You have given me the courage to try this. I mean, what could possibly go wrong? I am sure my husband would be happy to proofread my book and I also have a friend that has already published several books. When I say friend, I met her through my blog! Thank you SO much for everything!!!

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