Leaving 2018 like…

I think many people are glad we are saying “goodbye” to 2018. I know I am! Last year, I had so many New Year resolutions for the 2018 year and I was determined to complete all of them. Some definitely happened, while others were a complete bust.

A few of the resolutions that I accomplished, even if I was only scraping the surface, were working on my blog and testing out various platforms, finishing my book on vaginismus, getting back into drawing, and working on our wedding plans. I also told myself that I would read more in 2018, eat healthier and hit the gym harder; however, I slipped up quite a bit on all of those goals.

What the 2018 year has taught me is that life likes to throw you curveballs. You can have a plan in mind, but in an instant, things can cause that plan to spiral out of your control. You could be the nicest person, yet people will always find a way to make your life miserable. You can try your hardest and work until it makes you sick, but people will still find faults and say it’s not good enough. You can save money, but things will happen in your life that forces you to dip into your savings for emergencies.

In 2019, I want to turn my life around. I already feel like I have become a stronger person because of the trials I had to undergo during the 2018 year. The year 2019 will be my year. I am going to make a promise to myself that I need to start thinking positively and really devote my time to my health and overall wellbeing. I want to make something of myself and make a difference in this world. I believe that I have begun to do that with my book, articles, and TV segment on vaginismus; however, I want to do more.

Sure, anybody can say that they want to make a difference, but in 2019, I am going to do that. Even if it’s miniscule, I am going to find a way to bring positivity and light to other people.

I know that 2018 has been one of the hardest years of my life. Being in a toxic work environment, dealing with vaginismus, depression, anxiety, my weight and suicide and barely being able to get by financially. Yet, I had to continue forward and find ways to either fight my inner demons or fight those around me, who were trying to tear me down.

I fully believe that if I can change my mindset I will be able to conquer my goals for the upcoming year. I won’t actually name my goals because I don’t want there to be pressure on achieving them. Instead, I will create a vision board that will remind me everyday to stay positive, keep going and do your best.

I hope all of you have a great end of the year and a wonderful New Year! Let’s make 2019 a great one!