Some days you get into a strange stage of remembrance. They can be happy thoughts of nostalgia or thoughts that haunt you from the past. Whichever you are feeling that day, know that the confusion won’t last.
I’m sure we can all relate when we look at pictures from the past. A flood of emotions fill our minds and we don’t know what to do with them. Should we feel sad? Angry? Delighted? Perhaps, we should feel all of these emotions and just accept them.
No matter how much time has passed, everyone has secrets that they simply just live with and silently accept. Look at Rose from Titanic? She lived her whole life loving another, yet continued to live her life to the fullest with a husband, children and an array of adventures. Despite her story being fiction, there are many Rose’s out there. Are you one?
Don’t be embarrassed or upset at yourself for what you feel. You are who you are and you remember what you remember. It doesn’t make you a wicked person. I mean, we are all living our own lives and relishing in keeping some things secretive. Some people can’t help but hold onto their Heart of the Ocean.
I remember when I first really lived all by myself in my tiny studio apartment. I was sitting on my bed after a long day and realized I finally had time to process things that were going on in my life. For almost 6 or so months, I never processed the emotional heartbreaks that I was going through. It wasn’t until I listened to this song that I began to feel the memories and cried. I began to look through pictures, write and then I finally put everything away and just sat in silence with the music playing.
The slow melody was heart-wrenching and the lyrics were all too real to me at the time. I realized I was moving too fast and not allowing myself enough time. It was like I just wanted everything to hurry up so that I could move on. Sometimes we just need a little more time. Did I give myself enough time to grieve? No. I never did.
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