As many of you have noticed, I haven’t been on here in awhile. The reason for that is I need to keep myself busy, and for some reason, blogging hasn’t been enough. Depression is hard, so the best thing I can do to make sure I do not fall victim to it’s traps, is to stay occupied. Hence the art, book, crafts, singing, etc. Some days, it has really been helpful. I will get out some paint brushes and a canvas and just go to town on some art therapy. Other days, I’ll start a wedding project and become depressed again thinking about the honeymoon and vaginismus. It’s a battle, but my own personal battle that I have to fight through.
My sister also just had another baby, so naturally emotions have stirred up for me relating to vaginismus. Cian is adorable! Yay another nephew to spoil rotten!!!! 🙂 I can’t wait to meet him tomorrow, but I know that I’ll have to hide my tears with laughter and jokes for the majority of the day.
Babies make my thoughts on vaginismus come forward in my mind. I toy with the idea of if I want kids or not, but I also want the option to choose, if that makes sense…
Hopefully, I’ll get on here a little more frequently. I have been trying to, but talking about the vaginismus and depression hasn’t been helping me turn away from it.